Don’t get shocked, I am not retiring any time soon. And even when I retire or get out of my physical dimension, Honest Astrologer will continue to live.
I can retire or even die (the die part is for sure), butwill continue to live, and someone would succeed me who would keep helping people with this divine science.
I am just a tool to serve this movement, which has been blessed by the divine. Once my work is done, I will return ashes to ashes and dust to dust, but Honest Astrologer would continue.
However, why am I writing this today, because of an intense feeling of dispassion that has come over me since last few days, rather weeks.
Ketu Mahadasha does that to you. I have realized the impermanence of this world and all that it has to offer. I have seen so many cases of so “lovers” dragging each other to court, of friends back stabbing in a fashion that would put enemies to shame, I have seen parents exploiting their children and children feeding off their parents. Like my almost enlightened friend Pankaj says, “all relations belong to the body.” Few statements have sounded truer.
Of late I have been keeping myself on a strict diet and healthy lifestyle reason being, I am preparing for my retirement. I don’t want to be a sick old man who is being wheeled around by his sons. I would rather die. I had converted to a vegetarian years ago, and now I have almost become a vegan.
I want to be physically fit in my old age, finances don’t bother me, . Thanks to my Vidhya of astrology, I don’t need to save for my old age, god has been kind and I can pay my bills even if I sit in a village temple (taking this dialogue from my father).
I was discussing my retirement plan with him, and he said with a sly smile “Let your Venus Mahadasha come, then we will discuss your Sanyaas.”
May be this is Ketu speaking but I have always maintained that one NEVER forgets lessons of Ketu, I think I have learned enough to be detached. I know that my time is limited (don’t wana be one of those “Oh I am gonna die on this day” astrologer, but I know I don’t have a long life span for sure.
I don’t want to waste my human avatar a large part of this was already wasted in foolish educational system and climbing the so called corporate ladder only to fall flat from it. I think I have had it. I am sticking to material world as I have responsibilities especially for my kids, once they are settled I would not waste a week in the cities, entangled in wordily affairs. My only material wish now is to see my kids get settled. That’s it.
I somehow don’t have the passion of becoming a father-in-law (no thank you sons-enjoy your life but please spare me the hassle of being a dad-in-law) or even a grandfather (this one surprised even me, moon in Cancer and not wanting to see grandchildren, maybe this is Ketu talking.)
I just want to leave my sons in peace and hand over whatever I would have accumulated till then, barring may be a very small amount (my “screw you” money for the days I don’t wana do anaything). And I want to fade away.
My retirement date is January 26, 2040….!
I want to retire as a semi-Sanyasi (don’t have the guts of being a full sanyasi plus I have this net addiction).
I want to spend my golden years alone in the mountains, preferably in a village that has good Internet and electricity but BAD ROADS (yeah who wants visitors).
I want to spend my last days reading, meditating, and studying scriptures.
God willing, some day I would write a follow up of this blog, sitting in my wooden cabin, smelling fresh cold pine-kissed air, gently pampering my long white beard (I seriously want to grow one). A laptop on my desk and a picture of Baba Sai sitting next to it, smiling at me. God…I can’t wait to retire.
G. Vijay Kumar